The girl with the specs

Trippin’ over: bette davis eyes by kim carnes

When i was a little i would put my mom’s glasses and wear it while reading. Since it has prescribed lens, after a few hours i would get dizzy and lightheaded from wearing it. Yeah, rebel me. I used to think having glasses were cool (and i still do!).  I used to admire my mom while she was wearing one, thinking that glasses makes her look cool and smart (and she really is). Back when i was a child i would always ask her to have my eyes checked in hopes that i would be required to wear glasses. Little did i know that eventually my wish will come true.

Yes, i now wear one.  I was really prescribed to wear glasses and the opthalmologist said that if i wear it for three months, my eyes will not worsen. But i was indeed a rebel and
i did not listen to what the good doctor said; thinking that glasses are just hassle in life. Recently i visited the good doctor was shocked to receive the news that my eyes did worsen. So who is to blame? Of course the rebel me. Ha! So i vowed to wear it at all times in hope that somehow i could save my eyes for my future.

I was not really feeling anything strange. Previously, i would just wear it when i drive at night thinking that way i could see clearly. When i had my eye checked recently and started to wear it again (with a higher lens grade) the first thing i said was: “omg!Everything is clear! It’s like having a HD vision.”

Here are the list of my realizations to when i decided to be a good girl and start wearing my specs.

1. Cool. Glasses are cool. Yes they are. You get to see things more clearly. You get to have a clearer vision to appreciate things. You get to have more defined details of things than just blurred outlines . Most of all you get to appreciate the beauty that surrounds you.

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2. Fashionable. Imagine trying different frames and designs  to match your face and attiude. It’s like harry potter picking out his wand that will help him defeat voldermont. There are so many choices, you could even have a glasses fashion week; different frames to wear every week! Sadly, my desire to have a glasses fashion week and my financial status did not agree with each other. But trying to decide what frame to choice? It’s feels like the kid in me was at the candy store. I felt like a had a glassesgasm (if there is). Will i pick out the large ones? The quirky one with the red frame? Does the square thing suits me? The options are endless, luckily the husband of the doctor helped me picked out the right frame. If he did not help me, i would think i will have to spend the night at the clinic trying out all the glasses.

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3. For safety. I don’t drive at night without wearing glasses. I easily get distracted and blind when there are bright lights and with glasses, i can see things more clearly. Being a nurse, wearing specs minimizes the risk for medication variance. I could easily spot if the medicine or the dose is incorrect and i can clearly read the physician’s order. With my chosen profession, safety must be put in the outmost priority and if wearing glasses ensure that i give that safety to my patients; then i will proudly wear my specs. Also it protects me from unexpected splashes of bodily fluids. I had this one incident wherein i was removing an iv line from a patient and his blood splashed at me. Lucky me, i was wearing my glasses so the blood splattered at the lens. If i did not wear one? I would probably be having my blood tests done to rule out any kind of blood-transmitted diseases–which is a super inconvenient and dangerous.

4. Sign of aging. Yes it may be a sign that i am not getting any younger, the endless reading is putting a toll in my eyes. But despite wearing it as a sign of aging, i would like to think that it also signifies that i am taking care of myself as i age. Before i don’t really care if the things i see are kind of blurry, but now i made a decision to take care of my eyes and to not be contented with blurred visions when i could have a high-definition sight.

I promised myself that i will wear my specs in hope that my vision will not worsen in the future. Sometimes though i still feel like wearing one is a hindrance but i just have to remind myself of the things i enumerated above whenever i feel lazy wearing one. I realized that my dream to wear one came true, although it’s not really for aesthetic purposes that i wear one, but i’m really glad that i see things clearer.

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That thing called crush

Trippin’ over: collide by howie day

You just winked..
You just winked at me..sigh!

It’s when we have those little talks that makes my day. Its when you smile that makes my day whole. Its when you wink at me that makes my heart do this little flutter thing. This is what i call stupid crush.

Somehow along the way, your presence brightens my day and despite not trying to be giddly about you, i realized just too late: i have this stupid crush at you.

I know this is just a make-believe, i know the stupid talks we had are just random thoughts; but stupid me for thinking that there could be more.

You just winked at me..and my stupid heart will never be able to distinguish the make-believe from real.

And so i will bid my sad farewell for you and for my stupid crush. Maybe along the way, our right time will come; and maybe it was just not meant to be. But i thank you for making my heart feel young, for making me smile, for making me unreasonably jealous for just about nothing. But most of all thank you for this stupid crush that makes me believe that there is still a chance for my heart to beat again.